it's because when the morning sky fills up with light sometimes it can't hold it anymore.

so it spills out like milk from a bowl of cheerios your bringing to your baby brother in his highchair

and you wipe it up off the floor using paper towel but what oh what will act as your paper towel today

i think i may be out of ideas

i think my brain may be tired

i did mushrooms and tripped out at york all day on 4:20

everything was so green

cause in a state like that everything is so startlingly simple yet incomprehensibly large and there were buildings that looked like totalitarian regimes and there was bright bright miles of grass and there were people and i always forget about them because sometimes i forget that i am one of them

the other day i was walking with evan and i said to him "people are so fucking interesting, i hope i can be one someday"

i don't know why i said that

i wasn't trying in any way to be clever.

it just sort of came out.

i don't know if that makes any sense

she's sitting on her bed studying and i'm using her computer to write this because i don't have to study

she sits there all intent on making notes with her brow scrunched up just so and i can see the wheels turning and i can see the lightning flickering and i can see far too much in her eyes

and i can see evvvvvvverything in her eyes

and i type type type type type

and it's 2 30 in the morning and i'm not at all tired

i'm wondering whether or not i wanna keep doing acting or if i wanna switch totally and do something academic and like, i dunno, be a lawyer or a writer or something.

the streets below us are quiet

light splashes from streetlamps onto our faces as we look at the stars and we sing and we sing and we sing solely for the joy of singing it

we sing and we don't know the words

we sing for you and for you and for you

i want desperately to express something

i want desperately to feel something

i want desperately to be something

lets change the world

lets change the world

lets change the world

i'm gonna go kiss her now because there are so few opportunities for me to do so.