Yesterday i went to the Toronto Santa Clause parade. Matty h, Ev, and Andy C and i went, after smoking a rather large morning j. the santa clause parade is good times, because everyone is happy, girls are wearing scarves and drinking hot chocolate and i'm falling in love with all of them, children are stoked to see santa. we were near the university subway entrance, and people kept coming in and out with bicycles and strollers and stuff, getting mad at the stupid people enjoying the parade. NOTE TO THOSE PEOPLE: take a different subway. we left that general area to walk down the u of t way to meet parade loving girls who go to a real university, not theatre school. so we strolled down the crowded streets and just dug everything that we saw. santa came by. evan yelled at him. people stared. it was happy



we came back to my place and chilled out. played nintendo, because we're just badassed like that. watched fern gully, cause we're the coolest people on earth. nola came over. nola actually came over before fern gully, but i'm just mentioning it now. watched the grey cup. went for wendys/bowls during half time. came back, the edges of the world suitably dulled, and watched football. played more nintendo. then left to smoke yet again. and i didn't even smoke a cigarette.

after reflecting on my day that was spent completely under the influence, i think that i only exist between the milliseconds when you close and open your eyes for a blink.

what i wouldn' do to be somewhere else. not because here is bad, but because else is else and i don't know else as well as i know here. here is good. else could be great. else is full of endless possibilities.

sometimes i notice things that are generally imperceptible to me. perception is good times.



i wish that i could just completely let down every possible guard for just like, a day. just completely be whomever it is that i want to be.

guitar strings are being plucked right now by the little band that resides inside my computer speakers.

sleep would be welcome right about now.

also, i turn 19 in 5 days



you're all just figments of my imagination, and i thank you very much for sticking around. you make things interesting.