i saw all of the eldorado people last night. for those of you who have no idea who the eldorado people are, they're people from the camp i used to work at last summer, conveniently named eldorado. the camp, i mean. anyways, i saw them last night cause my buddy wayne had a party, and it was fucking sick. i miss those guys a lot. they're so damn funny. they're playing a baseball game against chingcouasy sports camp. they're gonna get their asses kicked. and i am going to go and watch. and laugh. and cheer. their whole mantra is "what sports camp has in skill, we make up for in spirit." goddammit i miss those guys.

so wayne's was a good time. matty h came, which was rad. we had adventures and met people that neither of us had met yet and he met camp people, and it was really interesting to see how people had changed and stuff. and i felt special cause i got a bunch of hugs when i came in. which was nice. and ex girlfriend was there, ex girlfriend who's sister is a leader in training at my camp. which wasn't awkward at all, which was rad. i didn't really expect it to be, but sometimes things get weird, nahmean?

most of the night is sort of a blur. but thats cool. haha. it was totally the same though, which was really cool. like, nothing had really changed. i just didn't know some of the kids that they were making fun of. but i knew some of them. bastards.

and then i slept in till 2 pm and spent the rest of the day swimming/hot tubbing with flu cause he randomly came to visit.

best

day

ever.

i want to wake up. i want to wake up in a different place as a different person in a different situation. i want to wake up free and clear and light. i want to wake up with sigur ros playing on my cd player like in vanilla sky. i want to wake up tom cruise. i want to wake up loved and adored and thought of with compassion and joy. i want to wake up in rome and go to work in a cafe. i want to wake up beside someone who loves me. i want to wake up where i have the people i used to have again. i want to wake up where i can have everyone. i want to wake up with a waytooblue sky above me and far too green grass and smile to myself because everything is too damn good. i want to wake up on top of a skyscraper. so high that i can see the smog like a toxic blanket on the city, soft as fleece but choking us slowly. i want to sit bolt upright in a cold sweat and get up and run. and run and run and run until i can shake this. until i can have this fall off like dead leaves off a tree. i want to tumble. i want to plummet. i want to feel the air rushing around me. i want to lock eyes and feel something there. i want something to be there. i want all the things around us to blur and for there to only be this and for that to be all i need. i want that to be all she needs. i want to be all she needs. i want to be great and grande and big and fantastic. i want to be.

the posse went out to turtle jack's and i was cleaning my house cause my irish grandmother is coming over on thursday so i couldn't go out. i=biggest loser. i'm talking to my old roomate and now i feel all introspective and retarded because i'm not living with him or any of them next year. cause we're not going to be close next year. because distance fucks things up. because effort eventually dies. so. i guess i'm sort of sad.

ok.  so.  cute work girl agreed to go out avec moi on friday to see paul play.  it went ok.  frankly, i can't really tell if this girl digs me at all, or if she just thinks that i'm an awkward douchebag.  i think it could easily go both ways.  which is fun.....really.
 
in other news, my ex girlfriend's little sister is a Leader In Training at the camp i work at, which is damn uncomfortable.  i realized it at lunch, and said "hey, do you have a sister named amanda?" and she said "yes rob.  yes i do."  at which point i said "ah" and walked away.  then later, this random other Leader In Training -who told me she could do the splits, then proceeded to do them, as i threw up in my mouth a little- started to talk to me, and i ignored her heartily, and started talking to ex's younger sister, saying something to the effect of "it's kind of funny how you're her sister and i didn't realize it until now".  she then said "yes rob.  yes it is."  there was then about five seconds of awkward silence, at which point i said "well.....i'm uncomfortable."  and left the room.   i'm my own hero. 
 
my next door neighbour is like, the coolest chick ever. it's>http://www2.emu-zone.org/host/disland/images/fcrom/Emo%20Yan%>it's pretty hilarious, cause we're the same person, and we've lived beside eachother for 2 years.  and have never talked previously.  now we're like, good friends.  how retarded is that?  it's cool though, we're going to have a kid and name him rod, so his nickname can be hot rod.  and i'm changing my last name to buble.  so he can be hot rod buble.  BEST PARENTS EVER!
 
i never wrote about going camping last weekend.  i went with my ryerson friends.  it was basically as follows: drinking all night, swimming, cliff diving, getting busted for having pot, stealing a street sign, stripping, getting sunburnt, enjoying myself immensely.
 
i've been so emo lately what with the digging of cute work girl, so i bought an emo cd today, as to continue with the trend.  it's a band called as tall as lions. they're pretty good.  sort of a mix of U2 and Sunny Day Real Estate.  i listened to the cd as i mopped the floor of the stage today. 
 
i'm going over to matty's soontime.  kirk out.

i am the only guy at my work.  and all of the girls i work with are attractive.  all of them.  I FUCKING ROCK.